How quickly I’ve gone from clarity and presence to heaviness and distraction. · The emails. · The notifications. · The fluff. · The jargon. · The processes. · The outcomes. · The numbers. · The expectations. · The deliverables. · The deadlines. · The non-drama. · The shit chat. · The coldness. · The separation. · Between what I’m doing now and what I was doing before. · Between where I am now and where I was before. · Between how I feel now and how I felt before. · I want before. · I want 3 months ago. · I want 3 months from now. · I want clarity. · I want openness. · I want freedom.