I need to accept that I might have some sort of chemical imbalance - something that puts me through these cycles of numbness.

I try so hard to prevent it, but I can’t.

I try to explain it through spirituality or Jungian processes, but am I putting too much pressure on myself?

Is it something I ultimately can’t control?

Is part of the ‘control’ letting go of how I think I should be?

Is this just me?